i woke up at 5:45am today..woooow...its rather unusual for me..coz unless thers somthng imp,i wont evn get up be it anytime...
maybe it ws the 6 cups of coffee i had the previous day as it ws my EXAM DAY...lol

but then i opted not to go for that choice of reasoning...
...i started wondering..y did i wake up rather abruptly...first i thought i ws thirsty..went to the kitchen n drank acup of water...but i wsnt satisfied..i know it wasnt water or thirst, but somthng else...

i wondered...ws it God? is He going to tell me somthng? is it y He is planning to send me to school early?
usually wen i have time bfr the class, i read the Bible or i allow my mind to wander n thnk free..that is thnk out of the box for a while.....

i guessed, maybe God wants to tell me somthng n ws waiting for me to listen..so i got ready..dropped off jeswin to wrkplace and....now wat? shud i go to my classroom or RSC ?
i strangely choose to go to the golf course(i thought God ws leading me there)...i parked my car in wheatshocker dorms n walked to a bench in WSU golf course...read my Bible for a while...again let my mind wander off...

the green canvas of nature ws beautiful...the golden rays of sun shown through the leaf bunches of the lush green trees...and the areas it fell...woooo..diamonds evrywhere...the dew drops(sprinkled water actually) showed themselves off like priceless shiny diamond lookin crystals waiting to evaporate off....
the cool breeze moved swaying the trees and plants...i wondered how enthralling it wud be if i wer to sit on a tree branch njoyin the breeze singing sweet songs n creatin an amazing orchestra using evrythng as its instrument.

but hellooooo.....am i here to njoy the nature or listen to God..???
so now i thought to take a walk...
i walked along through a pebbled path listening to some music..i ws startin to feel anxious n a bit disappointed...for i really expected God to tell me or show me somthng...maybe the music wud reveal somthng..keepin the hopes high...i walked..
'he knows my name'...i hummed along....
'above all'...i hummed along again
....but, i know He knows my name n that He loves me...is it wat God wantd to tell me??? maybe ???

nooooo...thers no maybes in God msg..i know that if He wants to tell me somthng...He will clearly show wat it is n will let me know that its frm Him....

"u cannot stroll in this area"....uhhh
" this is a golf course n not a park.....its dangerous"
an elderly man broke my thoughts...ummm....
i apologized n thanked him for letting me know...

liar...liar....
i knew very well that i ws not allowed to walk in the golf course,unless of course im playin...

i ws disappointed n frustrated to an extent...God din tell me anythng...
maybe, He hadnt planned to tell me anythng in the first place....maybe i jus woke up coz of the coffee...
hmmmm...lots of maybes....

i started walking bac....
stopped listening to music...no need, i said to myself..hmmm

as i ws walking...i started thnkin again...
how did i expect God to speak to me???
by the way, will GOD EVR WANT ME TO DO SOMTHNG THATS A SIN ???
n not following the rules bout the golf course is certainly a sin...

a realization slowly started dawning upon me....

i interpret God's msg the way i want it...n not the way He wants...

for example...wen im readin the Bible..wen i come across verses like 'fear not, Im wid you' n stuff...i rarely look at it through my life but wil quote it as an example to others....
'be humble n a servant....'....this will make me thnk that the ppl i know...shud start puttin off their egos n pride n start serving others...but i more often not look into my character...

i realized, its sooo very easy to misuse God's word to satisfy our ego needs..so veryy easy to thnk that God is guiding u somver(a situation ver u like)...and actually not see God's direction...

hmmmmm.....

welll....nw i do really thnk that i got somthng...God gave me a small msg...small n tiny for God...its big fr me...

so wat woke me up??? haha

wooooooo...i ws shocked!

i thought somone ws goin to die..stupidme!